cheroon asked me a couple of weeks ago what happened to my LJ, since I never posted anything anymore. Well, it's still here, obviously; it's just that this past semester has been such a whirlwind of actually having to do a shitload of work that apart from checking my friends' list every day, posting wasn't really at the forefront of my mind. Plus, I didn't really have much more to say than, "Lots of work. Going insane. Six more weeks of winter." Actually, that last part doesn't make any sense. Just popped into my head. Blame the phlegm.
But really, it has been a shitload of work. The past two years, I had maybe a maximum of 20 points per semester, and suddenly I'm doing 35 in this one. Needless to say, that kind of hit me over the head. So much so, that a couple of weeks ago I had a breakdown. I'd been feeling sort of shaky and dizzy for a couple of days, and my back was killing me because I was sitting behind the computer so much, as well as working two days a week, and one day, during one of Hans' classes, I just simply broke down. I tripped, and nearly spilled my coffee, and the next moment, I was bawling like a baby. I think I might have scared a couple of people, actually. Hans sent me home and told me to come talk to him the next day, which I did, during which we decided that I would simply continue, because dropping a course was really not an option, because that would either mean doing 40 points next semester, or studying even longer.
That was about six or seven weeks ago, and I'm still here. I'm pretty sure I'm developing carpal tunnel syndrome from sitting behind the computer so much, but at least I haven't had another breakdown like that one. And while I have no idea what I'm doing in at least one of the classes I'm following right now, I'm doing quite well otherwise. Scored a 9 for a position paper in Visser's class, which proves that the one Hans gave me for my Proficiency IV paper wasn't just a happy fluke. Hans' class itself is pretty straightforward, so I'm confident about that one as well. The only thing I'm a little worried about is Dekker's class, because, as I said, I really have absolutely no idea what I'm doing. But I'll either figure it out or just muddle along, and hopefully don't cock it up.
I also have been thinking about maybe, kinda, sorta becoming a cop. It's in the back of my mind, but it's not really leaving. This silly old show that I became so addicted to over the summer has actually kind of broadened my world. Before I started watching it, I was blissfully ignorant of the kind of shit that can go on right next door. But this whole issue of child abuse, child molestation and rape... well, it's terrible. Because it happens everywhere, and all the time. It is estimated that almost a million children a year are abused in the United States alone. That's quite a number. And the idea of having a job in which I could maybe do something about that, even on the smallest scale, well, it kind of appeals to me. I would, however, finish my studies first. I've looked at the website of the police academy, and with a Masters in something, the training would take about two years. And I think there's even a program where you could train for half the time, and work the rest. There's also a training specifically geared towards becoming a detective.
I don't know. I'll see. For now I have to look up things about prologues to the court.